Any dog lover who’s lost one will know the pain this brings. And so it is with Toby, our wonderful golden retriever. After 15 years, we’ve had to say farewell to him. He battled on with great stoicism, but in the end it was just too much for him. A true friend and much-loved member of the family, he will be sadly missed.
Look what Santa’s brought!
I can still recall the night my son stood on our doorstep with this bundle of golden cuteness in his arms.
Ben had collected Toby (registered name Kadaka Caricolake) from a breeder in Ivybridge on his way home for Christmas. He knew that we were missing our first retriever, Bouncer, and wanted to show his appreciation for helping him get through medical school. It was a wonderful surprise, and what a present Toby turned out to be – not just a pet who gave us so much pleasure and love, but the embodiment of what Ben had achieved, and his appreciation of our support.
Cheeky monkey
Like all puppies, Toby was a proper mischief maker, with a taste for carpet tiles and underlay! On his first trip to what turned out to be his favourite beach (Carne – on the Roseland peninsula in Cornwall), the little monkey got under an elderly gentleman’s feet, and nearly caused him to have a serious mishap – much to his displeasure!
People often ask when retrievers settle down – well from our experience it’s not until they get to about two. In the meantime be prepared for lots of naughtiness – including running off and jumping in someone else’s car boot!
Growing bond
With Ben and Sarah having left home, Toby helped to fill the gap they left, and became so much a part of mine and Angela’s lives. Like most retrievers, Toby was an outdoor dog. He was never happier than when on the beach, or walking through the woods or along the coast path. In these, him and I had a shared passion, and the bond between us grew stronger and stronger, particularly without the constraints of work after I retired in 2013. We’d had family pets before, which of course were much-loved, but my friendship with Toby was somehow closer, and he became ‘my dog’, as Angela would say.
Unconditional love
Toby was always great company, and as good as gold (most of the time!). The unconditional love which dogs give makes you feel so good. He always had a cheerful, waggy greeting, bringing me his favourite toy when I got home, putting a smile on my face and easing the problems of a day at work. He asked for nothing, save for food, drink and shelter, and gave everything, without complaint. He was a healing dog too, and I will forever remember how he helped me recover from a breakdown in 2012.
Going fishing with Toby
I started taking Toby fishing quite early on. It took him a little while to realise that I wasn’t casting lures out for him to retrieve, and that splashing around in the shallows doesn’t exactly help the fishing, but he got there. He used to get impatient, and if I wasn’t catching he would run over to my fishing partner and see how they were doing.
We had many fishing exploits together, and those who have fished with me, or read my book, will know that he became a bit of a fishing legend. He was the perfect fishing partner – he always wanted to go, never minded where to, and never gave marks away!
He always knew when a fishing trip was on, and if I didn’t take him he would sulk until I got home, taking himself upstairs and laying on some article of clothing with my scent on it.
Catch and keep
Toby didn’t believe in catch and release. On one occasion, I landed a bass, measured it, and took a few scales from it, before returning it to the water. As I did so, Toby pushed past me, and made a grab for the fish; he often does this, but usually they are much too quick for him!
On this occasion however, he was successful, and his head popped up with the bass hanging from his mouth – he looked very pleased with himself! I shouted at him to leave the fish, but he was having none of it, and promptly ran off up the beach.
I chased him, and was about to give up, when he placed it, ever so gently, on the sand. To my great surprise, the fish was still alive, and had not a mark on its body. Wasting no time, I took the fish back to the water and slipped it in for a second time, holding his Lordship off; amazingly it swam off, seemingly none the worse for its doggy encounter with the terrestrial world!
Handsome dog
I have so many wonderful memories of Toby. Take the day Toby was runner-up in the ‘most handsome dog’ contest at the Trewithen Country and Classics show in 2013. I have never entered Toby in anything, either before or since this. So many people said what a beautiful dog he was over the years (and did so until he died), so I couldn’t resist entering him, and it was all done in a spirit of fun in any case. When he was awarded second prize, I was as pleased as any ‘dad’ could be, and proudly walked him round to show off his posh rosette.
It was so hard to let Toby go, but he had a good, long life, and we were blessed that he spent it with us. He will be greatly missed, and leave a gaping hole in our lives. Our lovely boy will always be in our hearts, and will never be replaced.
I feel your loss. We’ve just said goodbye to our Collie, Jessie, only last Friday, she was nearly 14 and also became ‘my’ dog as her arrival coincided with my early retirement.
Thinking of you and yours at this time.
All the best.
Thankyou for your kind words Alan. I’m so sorry to hear about Jessie. We also lost Toby on Friday. It was a truly horrible day. Although the pain is slowly subsiding, we miss Toby terribly. Thinking of you at this sad time.
Robin
I know how much this hurts as we lost our little Yorkie recently.
Thankyou Keith. I’m so sorry to hear about your Yorkie. There’s something unique about the bond we have with our dogs.
Robin and Angela,
We are so sorry to hear of the loss of Toby. I had the pleasure of spending some time with you both last year and he was as you say, a wonderful dog. It’s so lovely that you shared some great fishing trips together along the way. He will live on in your memories and bring a warm smile I am sure.
Take care and hope to see you soon.
Luke
Thanks for your kind words Luke. He was indeed a lovely chap, and always liked having visitors – especially ones that fish!
Tight lines.
So sorry to hear about Toby Robin and I know how you feel as exactly the same happened to us a few days ago when we lost our collie Clyde. The house seems empty as I’m sure yours does.
It’s always very difficult never gets easier and agree that when you’ve got a dog during retirement you get very close.
We collected Clyde nearly 8 years ago from a Welsh dog’s home but he had been rescued in Ireland. He seemed to be saying thank you everyday to us.
Thankyou for your kind words Peter. So sorry to hear about Clyde. As you say, the house feels empty, and it feels so odd, not doing all the things that were part of our routine with Toby. Clyde was obviously a well-travelled dog, and knew a good owner when he saw you.
What a beautiful piece Robin. Toby certainly was a superb dog in every way. He won the hearts of all those he met. There is no easy way through this sad time. We find that resisting the pain impossible and rather than ‘braving it out’, we allow the memories to flow freely. It is wonderful that you have so many photos and memories of your lives together to relive, laugh and cry over. My abiding memory of Toby is the way he cuddled his soft toy when he was dozy. Run on handsome Toby…. alongside Bouncer, Robbie, Jack and Samson. ❤️
Thankyou so much for your kind thoughts and great advice Jill. So comforting to think he is with the other boys now; I’m sure he’ll be retrieving lots of bass with them!
A lovely, and beautiful tribute to such a wonderful Caine companion . Toby the Bass retriever !
I very much feel your pain and the hole this leaves when we loose such a loyal and trusted friend. Toby was that one special dog like my Monty that you form a extra special bond with.
He was a very gentle and giving boy that made friends with all he met. He knew the route we would take before we made it, and in his later years, still jumped in the car even if he couldn’t come along with us. I’m sure if you had given him a rod to hold, he would of caught more than us. I have so many lovely memories of the times we have all shared together, and particularly the special moments of my red letter sessions when Toby was there to witness all those triumphs and the many many blanks too. He will be truly missed by all that had the pleasure to meet him, his memory will leave on forever in the book and in our minds. Truly a very very special retriever !
Thankyou Paul. I know it was hard for you when you lost Monty, so I hope Toby’s passing hasn’t invoked too many sad feelings for you.
I’m very touched by what you’ve written, and to know that he was as special to you as to me and my family. Your words have evoked so many wonderful memories of Toby. I know he used to especially look forward to fishing when you were coming along.
Toby was the most wonderful dog. I feel so lucky to have been fishing with him and to have woken up to cuddles with him. He will be so missed but he was so incredibly loved and gave us all so much love back. Big cuddles xxx
Aww, Thankyou Georgie – so nice of you leave such a lovely message. I have some great photos of that time we went fishing. Pity we didn’t catch anything!
O dear and so sad. I knew he was finding life a struggle but he was a lovely dog. He always sat on my feet when I called! I know you will miss him but you obviously have many happy memories. Love to all Margaretxx
Thankyou Margaret. He did have some funny ways!
As you both know Robin & Angela ,we feel deeply saddened for your loss . Toby was so special to all of you and your family .He gave you all so much comfort in times of need and was a very special and loving retriever. Our memory will always be of him sucking his Teddies which he loved x
Thankyou Karen and Gary. He was indeed a special dog. Who would have thought a big dog like him would have sucked his teddy like a baby!